I always liked Abraham Lincoln. He showed the world that anything is possible if you are ready to do hard work. I can’t imagine a better example for human kind other than  Abraham Lincoln. He is simply superb. The first book I read in my life is the Malayalam translation of Les Misérables (The famous Victor Hugo novel) by Nalappattu Narayana Menon. I was 8 at that time. Since then I started reading books and it became a habit. I can say that reading played a significant role in molding my character. (Remember the great saying-tell me what books you read, I will tell you all about your character). Books are good friends indeed. I love to read poetry, short story, novels and essays.
Yesterday I thought about myself. In fact I have been thinking about me for the past 26 years, but I found out a little. I always wanted to become a famous person. Social working was my first field of interest. I can’t apply for MSW, instead I have done journalism and became a journalist. But now also I don’t have a clear idea about social working. I hate NGO style of social working (funded social work!!). To me Mother Teresa was the best example of social worker. Recently in a news report I found out that there are 41 Cr poor people in India. Besides all the efforts to eradicate poverty Indian government failed again. In my opinion education is the best way to eliminate poverty in this country. I intend to put up a trust which will help all the children to get access to higher education. Now this is my piece of social work (right now I don’t know when it is going to happen, at least I will be able to help 10 students that’s my prayer to god). If one gets the opportunity to live his dream India will become a developed country.
But (an extremely large ‘but’) remains and I count them as my drawbacks as a person. I can’t implement the above said vision because of the following reasons. In reality this has become a self discovery. One should avoid all these to become good men/women. I feel ashamed to write all these down but this is the fact and I should admit it.
I am a humble person. But in reality it is euphemism.  I am a coward, that will be the right way to express it. I have inhibitions to protest, in other words I am not that much smart.
I am possessive. Not at normal level but at an extended level. Sometimes I may feel ashamed of it. Even with friends I feel the heat of  possessiveness. (What a bad idea, isn’t it?). Now it is not making much problem but after marriage (of course I would like to marry) the situation will be different. Don’t know how to overcome it.
I have only initial enthusiasm. When I start something my level of enthusiasm will be high. But it slowly reduces over time. This is the one bad quality I hate the most.
I am a procrastinator, (procrastinator=Someone who postpones work-especially out of laziness or habitual carelessness). Me got the definition from the web. One should avoid this to become better men. This is indeed a bad quality.
I expect more but work little. I have got a good memory (thank god!!) so when I hate someone I don’t easily forget them. I evaluate people based on their behavior in the past.
The ugliest quality in me is that I think only after speaking. This habit helped me alot to collect enemies. The right thing is think twice before you speak.
I am not a jolly kind of person. I always wanted to to have a girlfriend but I have a problem. I don’t have the courage to speak to them. When I speak few words with any of the girls I suddenly fall in love with them!! (I studied in boys college, now I regret for that).
I can’t implement my decisions. When I take a decision, I will act against it in the very next moment. These things are not good for a normal person. Now I admit it because If anyone suggests something to change all these, you are always welcome.
Below I quote some of my favorite lines. One is in Malayalam. It is written by the famous poet “Vallathol” and it means that If you try everything is possible.

പരിശ്രമിക്കുകിലെന്തിനേയും
വശത്തിലാക്കാന്‍ കഴിവുള്ള വണ്ണം
ദീര്‍ഘങ്ങളാം കൈകള്‍ നല്‍കിയത്രേ
മനുഷ്യനെ പാരിലയചതീശന്‍-
വള്ളത്തോള്‍

Another one is that-Not our wishes and hard work but god’s mercy is the basis of everything. Seems contradictory, I believe in both!!!